Friday, April 04, 2008



An Entry of Whinning...........

No....I did not see it coming...I do expect quite a share bit of hardship these coming few years....but I did not see that coming....I felt like I just hit the wall with a 100km/kph force........My head is spinning.....somemtimes I wonder how far or how low can one sink when they are in thier darkest times....well these stuff proves to me that when God is testing you, he makes sure you get the hit badly so you won't forget it.

I am not sure why stuff have to turn out like that....I don't know if you guys have watch that movie which was acted by Will Smith " The Persue Of Happiness". My current life is just like him at the moment.... Running two ways to meet days end and burning out.... but what I am glad about is that non of my dearest left me in the mist of all these chaos but instead stick to me closer than ever before.....That I have to be greatful.One say you will see who is your friend and who is not when shits happens and that I will totally agree with. Only friends will lead a helping hand or eventually call to ask if you are alright. I have to say I am glad to have friends of such to go through this period with me.

That day when my cousin told me, " You better take care cause when you graduate you will have a huge debt falling on your shoulder" Well at that time I though yea sure enough, the money I borrowed for studies and stuff.....not gonna be that hard....
Today I called home and found out something that I did not expect.....Soon our house will no longer belong to us............Well not under our name anyway......and that really kick my head abit as to register or digest what mom has just said.....All I can say is.......things have turn into such a point where for a while you just don't know how to react.

I asked myself again and again did I make a wrong choice to study overseas and things went bad? Or partially because dad lost his job? Or because of the bad enocomy?....It just don't make sense........Rewind it to a few years back....I was still the happy mummy's little girl with everything provided for me in a silver platter..........Know nothing about worrying......money? Not a problem, just have to ask dad and he will give me some........Rental? What the hell is that?........Bills? Non of my business....dads gonna pay that...
Where are my sugar muffin rainbow filled days........................where have they all gone? Did someone took it away from me while I am sleeping? Please give it back........ I am getting really tired now..........
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Posted by Cowcanfly at Friday, April 04, 2008