Tuesday, July 31, 2007



Things that we should do more often.....

Yeah, finally I am writing......but seriously......what can I possibly write when I am just repeating the same shit for the past few months? Then again maybe I should squeeze something out from my genius brain to entertain you guys abit LOL.....
I guess maybe we are getting OLDER.....seems like we are constantly complaining or getting stress up about our current live.....but I wonder why'o why? Then I suddely this word pops into my mind...ignorant is bliss.....don't you agree? The more we learn the more we analyze stuff around us and the more we get stress up just because the situation does not apply to what we want or believe. When we are kids we want to be grown ups....when we are grown ups we wish we can be kids orever.....LOL....wth? To be honest, I do not regret a single bit of my life until now cause I would not have learn or be the way I am now if I haven't been tru what I have....but there is something that I regreat of not doing more.................TAKING HEAPS OF PHOTOS WITH MY FAMILY N BITCHES...........it is a lil bit sad when I didnt see much photos in my photo album or laptop , or recall the time where we actually take heaps n heaps of random photo....although we did take some but everyone is being so aware tat there are not much candid photos taken.....and I can say tat apply especially to me because I have this thinking that I look real ugly in photos so I end up hating taking photos most of the time. Then after watching this video from Mutya Buena (Real Girl) only did I realise that looking nice on a photo is not the point....the point is recording down that moment is far more important than me looking nice n pretty.....that moment of happiness, that candid look, that spark of joy!!! all these emotions are a one off thingy which you might not get to recapture it again! and that's the me, the me tat laugh and smile when I hear Christal ranting how hungry she always is with tat blur look and demanding the food to arrive faster, when jeannie always use cheebai and fuck in every sentence, when we all making fun of lishian small eyes.....and xia shien lanchaping without washing his hands (jk...).....LOL.....damn I can so feel tat XS wan to slap me now.....and ofcouse mitch wanting to shit in the middle of a mamak session but firmly says no to Murni toilet other than her own house toilet......LOL..... damn i feel like mitch is gonna slap me too when I come bck........=)
So guys, I promise myself that this time around when I come back, I will gonna start taking picture like a mad women! So much so that you think some paparazzi is around you....hehehehhehehe....and I want to paste the pictures on my bedroom wall so that whenever I am sad or unhappy.....those photos will be my remedy...... ...sounds like a good idea?????? and I wan to farking make scrap book with all these photos!!!!!! N let my kids, grandkids, ur kids n ur grandkids know that how colourful their grainnies life are!!!

BUT THE FUCKING PROBLEM IS............................







I DON'T HAVE A FUCKING CAMERA... =_="

So first thing comes first.....I will come bck with a camera!!!!!!!
OR.....I will bring cash home to get that fucking camera.....
OR..........you guys can get me one for my Christmas
present!!!!!!!! ISN'T THAT A FUCKIN GREAT IDEA?!?!?!?!?!
LOL........

p/s: I think everyone wans to slap me now....LOL......=_="



Anyway this is the song that I mention by Mutya Buena (Real Girl)
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Posted by Cowcanfly at Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Wednesday, July 04, 2007



Happy Days...

Yes...its easy to get lazy n not update your blog....
Yes...its easy to get bored with studying...
Yes...its easy to get sick of going to work everyday...
Yes...its easy to get homesick when you only get to see family n frens once a year....
Yes...its easy to get depress when shits happens and all ur bitches are no where near you...
Yes...its easy to get the idea of not waking up from sleep n just keep on sleeping

These are just a glimps of what it feels like inside me at the moment. After reading Christal post just now....it just slap me on my face again....Yes.....its been ages since I last have a really good chat with them....All of them....

Its easy to have an illusion...you might ask wut short of illusion? Yes...illusion of your best mates having much much more fun on the other side of the continent wherelse you thought you are the only miserable one who is stuck there...lonely and depress.....
Well I guess I am wrong then......I guess our bond is really thick....thicker than I have ever imagine cause we all felt miserable at some point where we all wish we were back in Murni eating our fav food and teh ais......yes those were the days...simple yet happy....n tat is wut u call HAPPYDAYS....

Yes.....n it scares me how much I rely on my best mates. All the depression, all the heart ache, all the worries....they are the one whom you turn to when shits happens....n true enough that you get ppl saying frens come n go....but NO!!!! Not for my bitches.....No one can replace them....Nothing can replace them ......Not new frens that I have make here, not ppl whom you hang out with....No......its just not the same.....its not that new frens aren't good enough...its just that you JUST JUST wish that they are here....Where art thou all my bitchesss??????......
As everyone do...I do take it for granted that we have each other to share our ups and downs... but now its getting harder n harder....yes we do talk....yes we do have some update on each other lives and what is going on.....but it is just not the same as sharing our thoughts and musings on the weekend over a glass of teh ais.....

I know we will still remember each other n have a special place in each other hearts....but I am still afraid of the idea that somehow as time flies by.....we will get used to the fact that we won't be able to hangout anymore and that is alright....NOOOOO.....its not alrite........NOOOOO its not right......I don wan to grow up.... Yes I am whinning big time....and Yes I am being emo.....but its winter and its raining all the time...so i guess its alrite for me to be emo....wuts even a better excuse I am a girl.....with monthly mood swings....yes we all blame it on PMS......

I just hope I can rewind.....and relive those happy days....but all said n done.....those were the great memories that I will bring with me happily to my grave when I die.....no regrets of knowing u all ......my dear bitches......
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Posted by Cowcanfly at Wednesday, July 04, 2007