Thursday, January 13, 2011
Almost Dead
Yes.....
This blog was in a coma for the past 2 years.....Actually I just couldn't be fuck to write down what are my thoughts anymore because they usually come and go so quickly. I guess on the other hand I have a memory span of that Dory Fish in Nemo as well since I can only last a few mins in thoughts and its gone. I always tell myself I'm exhausted from work and over working and this and that but FUCK THAT...... YES I AM SHORT FUSE so WHAT......... This year new year resolution.....STOP GIVING MYSELF A FUCKING EXCUSE.............yes.......I know again I do need a slap on my face sometimes and you bitches would most gladly do that for me.........
Almost been away from home now for 5 years...........damn thats long.......but I guess I'm not looking back now since I've came a long way by myself. Yes its hard and Yes its lonely....but hey you lost some you gain some.
Hope this year is gonna be better because I guess I do work a lot lesser and have a bit more to spend now compare to where I have first started and I would add that to my small little accomplished file........
As I walk further down the road of adulthood....the more I realize how shitty life or things or people can be around you. It was always rainbows and butterflies when your young and all we care about for tomorrow is that we can actually make more new friends or past our freaking test...... but now test or no test....its test day everyday.....task to test our EQ.....task to test our IQ and there are even task to test our ability to lie through things and see how smooth or far can we go being unnoticed......when I was younger I felt that this is totally unacceptable but as time goes by and when you need to stand tall in this society...... or when you need to smooth things out and get yourself things you wanted or out of situation.....this lying thing that I hated so much has become a skill that is much needed......... Not to say I love lying or lying is something that I do everyday............but telling half truth or altogether pretending to be ignorant will sometimes get you out of shit and even get you things you wanted..........ass kissing or some say ass wiping will be necessary as well .... well lets just add that to the pot as well.....what other ingredients have we attain down the road as well!!!??!?!?
So at the end of the day my dear bitches....did we become more wiser or from my own point of view that we become more cynical and scarier as we grow up..........because I believe we are capable of doing things that we find unacceptable when we are younger but we can actually do it now with grace!??!?!?! What happen?!?!?!?!? Did age turn as into monster or did we do it to ourselves deliberately!??!?! OR can we blame society again?!??!?!?
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Posted by Cowcanfly at Thursday, January 13, 2011
