Sunday, March 29, 2009



Him

Yes.......its officially been almost 5 months now....
Thanks for all the concerns but we are still going strong...
Ofcouse we did have our ups and downs but at the moment I just enjoy the time spend talking with him on the phone.
After he left, till sometime later only I found out little things about him and what he have done for me that makes me felt warm inside. Just like my last convo, I was stupid enough not to realise he actually bought me the flowers until yesterday when I was in a conversation with my housemates. Nic was complaning about her boy not buying flower for her but for another girl instead on that girl's convo. Then I started saying that "Its ok, Shaun never bought me flowers anyway". Right after I finished saying that, both Nic and Alex turn their head and stared at me like I have just killed my own mom........ "What!?!? Who say Shaun didn't get you any!??!??!?! Did you know he called me that night to ask me get the nicest bunch of flower in the shop????? SO means out of all the flowers you got....his was the most expensive and big one.....How can you NOT KNOW?!?!??!".....Yes...both Nic and ALex almost chewed my head off....but at that moment....I just can't help but smile....
Sometimes I guess he doesn't show but he does love me in his own way afterall. But ofcouse there are times where I felt neglected and alone when he didnt pick up my calls or answer my message. That is the time where so many negative advise comes in. I guess it is true that why bother when he is so far away and we don't get to see each other at all ? Just forget about it is what I always heard......But strange enough...how could you let go of a relationship when there is absolutely nothing wrong with it and when you haven't even try working things out together? I don't believe things come easily but I do believe having determination and faith goes a long way. I am trying my best to build my relationship so next time when I look back I won't regret and always have that "what if" thing going through my mind....Therefore thanks for all the concern and advise but sometimes all I need is just some encouragement to tell me this is just a small bump on the road. And for those who have been patience enough to hear my rantings....Thank you and you are a truely good friend indeed.


Lov,
Cow
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Posted by Cowcanfly at Sunday, March 29, 2009